i dont know.... IM lost

im lost im sad im depressed
and i dont know why.

the guy i like/ love most

said he was inlove with me
and that he wishes i wasnt with dylan

Zach oh Zach
I'm lost 
I can't find my way
My mind is mixed
Nothing can be found
I don't know whats right
I don't know whats wrong
All I know is that 
I want to be with you
But with my mind a buzz
I can't say 
Since
Sometimes I'll get what I've always wanted
And feel like I have nothing
Or I don't want it anymore.
Or I loose it 
To soon
Right when I have you in my arms
Closest to my heart, 
Please promise me you won't leave.
I love you.

H a t e

She hated her eyes
She hated her nose
She hated her hair
And her smile too

She hated her arms
She hated her legs
She hated her stomach
Her breasts and butt too

She hated her school
She hated the drama
She hated the lies
And the truths too

She hated her tears
She hated her pain
She hated being numb
And her scars too

She hated her life
She hated it all
She hated herself
Until he proved
He Loved her.

Dear You

Dear You,

    Smile. Even though you're always beautiful,
    a frown doesn't really suit you.

                    Love,
                       Me.

P.S. I care.

You Said

You said
   you'd never hurt me.
        Was that a lie too?
You said
   we'd stay together.
       That was never true.
You said
   that you'd protect me.
       Did you mean from heartbreak too?
You said
   you had loved me.
      But not how I "loved" you.

Re-Enabled

May I leave a whisper around your ear
Dodge My words and escape that boring sound
A cold drift of air hits your face again
Dig Holes to find that flat attraction
I never missed that moments we shared

I have the Bow
But you have no arrow
I'm already hit in the heart
Its broken

I have my hands to hold it
You don't have the glue for stitching it

I wonder if I ever needed you
why did I called you darling
That can't Love

I had a single moment of revelation
Till I die again
I aim so high you could not reach with your eyes
After all I found a way to compete with myself
You Just found a way to get me on my knees

I wonder if I ever Loved you
I gave you my heart
That can't be a human life

Cannot or am I wrong
Live on or cast away

the moments we shared
and
Every single breath I took with you
Every little word I said
I take it back
It never counted that much for you
I swear I won't make the same mistake again

Im Shattered

Shattered peices on the floor, 
No i dont think i can take anymore.
You just want to see me burn,
Oh how shallow you are, you never learned!
Beauty and pain, its all the same,
Because you just need somebody to blame.
Next time you want to point fingers look in the mirror, 
there you will find the one to blame for all this pain.

Emo I have long brown and blonde hair And black is what I like to wear Black eyeliner covers my eyes Sometimes people are what I despise People call me sleazy And sometimes easy They also call me emo and weird Ever since I  randomly appeared At their tiny little school They all like to judge me But they're  are people that know The way things really go They're the ones I call friends They know the real me The me no one else sees The me that loves to laugh and smile And be with them for awhile The me that can play guitar and sing Because it's just my thing They know that under all this black Is a girl who loves hug attacks A girl who wants to be accepted Not the one who is excepted So stop judging me And try to see The girl under all this black